Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Okay, Okay....

Yes, yes... I know I've been a bit of a downer as of late.. What can I say? My 3:30 am - 11 pm schedule for on average 4 days out of every 7 is getting to me... I am TIRED!!
But I hear those of you that have said: "Either you are part of the problem, or you are part of the solution."

And as I want to be part of the solution (and not ADD to the problem, God knows that those of us with kiddos with challenges have enough negative shit to get out from under on any given day), I am going to refrain from posting for a bit (unless it's really really exciting OMG type stuff).

I need to find my mojo/groove back... I seem to have misplaced my 'the glass is half full and somebody will stop by to top it off' attitude....I also seem to have lost my sense of humor.... (and that, my dears, is a BIG stress sign for moi.. I can typically find the absurdity in ANY situation).

So 'off to find all of the above'.. I think most will actually come back once I am through my current work crunch, and have had a few hours here and there to actually slow down (and maybe take a nap... LOL)

"I'll be back".. (but do come send a rescue squad if I haven't resurfaced in a week...)

P.S. I HAVE to add one 'parting shot' and then I'll 'put a sock in it'.
Can you tell me the difference between scheduling your kids around your interests and YOUR own life, versus scheduling your interests/your own life around your kids? No? Then you're part of the problem....


At 12:16 PM, June 24, 2008 , Anonymous Jeanne said...


You're not part of the problem, you're definitely part of the solution! You, the walking, talking, book of knowledge... inspiring others with your drive and ability to do IT ALL! Come on! Let's hear it for Petra!

:-) As far as your parting shot... well said my friend, well said.

At 4:09 PM, June 24, 2008 , Blogger Petra said...

Bwahahahaha... who is this person with the ability to 'do it all' you are refering to?? It sure as heck ain't me.... So far this has been the week of many things started but nothing finished, many balls juggled and all have come crashing down, either on my head, or worse, my poor boys' heads.. UGH.

See, my thing is I don't make promises I can't keep. I had made both boys several promises for this week, in anticipation that I would get certain work commitments done by end of day today. Well, work-wise things hit a BIG snag earlier this morning, so now my end dates for this project phase have been pushed out till next week Monday. I'll be working my butt off for the rest of the week getting everything back on track for work, which means I have to cancel a shopping trip with Salamander, and I will have to reschedule a play date for Thursday with some friends (as I'll have to work instead). Bleegh!!!

Doing it all??? I think not ... (and now I am definitely guilty of making my two precious guys fit my crazy work schedule, instead of the other way around. AND I HATE THAT)

At 9:03 PM, June 24, 2008 , Anonymous Jeanne said...

Considering you're juggling a hell of a lot more balls than the rest of us, I'd say you're doing a great job. I'm sorry you're having such a crappy week. I am sending some positive energy your way.

IMO, you kick ass!

At 9:12 PM, June 24, 2008 , Blogger Kim Stagliano said...

I hear you, Petra! We're about to move. UGH! Hope you get some sleep. EVERYTHING is worse without sleep. Even the good stuff stinks when you're fried. K

At 10:07 PM, June 24, 2008 , Blogger Petra said...

Kim! Good luck on the move. Wanna trade places? I'll do your move, you get to 'play' with some of the characters I am trying to keep in line.. LOL...(had to try).

Jeanne, thanks once again (and thanks for listening to me whine). I'll get through this, I always do. This week has just been a bad stack up. Salamander is out of school and is counting on some time at home with 'just' mom & instead he's been shuttled from place to place, he has also not been feeling well (definitely detox), work hitting 'bumps', *somebody* being in town this week and unnecessarily questioning or wanting to change every single system I have in place while at the same time not being willing to do any of the additional work that results from upsetting the usual routine, and that same *somebody* making plans for the boys for the weekend and then basically *bailing* and leaving it up to me to make things work/do damage control, blah blah. And Potatey is getting crunched in all of this, so he's not too happy either. If I make it to Thursday nite without *imploding* I'll be OK.. LOL.

I did have a good chat this afternoon (after my previous post) with the 'chief guy' I'm working for on this work project - he and I have a long professional history (plus he was my mentor for quite a while) and he knows I'll do what I can to get thing back on track. He also knows my personal situation (in all its goriness and messiness). He also knows that this particular project is NOT an easy one (which is why he wanted me on this project to begin with - I have a rep that there are not many projects that I can't get done somehow). So right now the agreement is that I'll keep plugging along on things and where ever I'm at on Thursday nite is where I'll do the 'hand off' to him for Friday (as I absolutely cannot work the whole day on Friday - I'll have both boys at home). And then next week Monday we'll both jump on things and wrap 'this baby' up (and then it's on the next thing, as I have several more projects in the queue..).

I truly should not complain about work.. there are many that have lost jobs or have had to take pay cuts. That hasn't happened to me at all yet. If anything, business has picked up quite a bit as more companies prefer using contactors/consultants to save on their payrolls. And every penny my business brings in means continued treatment for the boys (as well as a roof over our heads and food).

I'm going to sign off for today.. time to get a few hours of zzzz's. And then back at it bright and early tomorrow morning :)


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